Well, Happy Blogiversary to me!
When I think back to where I was when I started this, it kinda blows my mind. Two babies, literally....one four and one one. I had just finished up my Master's and was trying to stay on top of scrapbooking everything that happened in my kids' lives. And where am I now?
I've built a business from nothing. And frankly, I didn't have much to do with it. I was the vessel, I guess, but this business has been all God's doing. And I will keep at it as long as he keeps using me.
And some days, that's hard. Because this business is kinda cut throat. There are a lot of photographers out there. Some of them are good. Some of them are not. And I just pray that all of them love, adore, and respect their clients as much as I do.
But what business isn't cut throat? This is something that I've hard to learn the hard way lately. The last month has been very difficult and I feel like the Lord is reminding me not to fuss.
"34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:34.
But I'm pretty sure I've already learned this, Lord. Do we really need to go over this again?
And then I look up the same verse in The Message version and it's like a face palm to my forehead.
34 “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
And so it's been. I'm not currently living day by day, but hour by hour. No kidding.
I'm not sure how this bill is going to get paid, or that will get taken care of, but my kids are happy and healthy and we'll figure it out as it happens.
Thanks to some hurts, some forgiveness, & a whole lotta grace, I'd say I'm right where the Lord wants me to be. But I can't actually tell you where that is. Does that make sense?
Sometimes I wonder if the unknown and chaos are what we need so we will rely on Him more. Is there something I'm missing? Because I'm about done with the chaos, Lord. (He does read my blog. Check out the Instagram feed (@twischropp) if you don't believe me. ;) But I think he knows.
So I'll keep doing. And being still (Psalm 46:10). And praying.
As Lysa Terkeurst wrote in her new book "The Best Yes", "The one who obeys God's instruction for today will develop a keen awareness of His direction for tomorrow."
To be continued.... ;-)